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TABLE OF CONTENTS:

     [4/25/21 - DAY 1 (4/25)] *Garrett arrives in Boston, and Dodger picks him up from the hospital. Later they discuss CBT.
     [5/26/21 - DAY 1 (4/25)] Coyote contacts Garrett, warns him about Dodger, and offers a few resources if he needs an escape.
     [5/28/21 - DAY 2 (4/26)] Garrett and Dodger argue about Dodger refusing to defuse his door bombs. Later, Dodger tries bottoming and Garrett gets a chastity device.
     [6/22/21 - DAY 3 (4/27)] Garrett earns his way out of the cock cage with knifeplay. Dodger leaves afterward and comes back bruised and bloody.
               - Dodger carves a protection rune into Garrett's chest.
               - Dodger bottoms again, featuring post-orgasm torture.
     [7/16/21 - DAY 4 (4/28)] *Garrett wakes Dodger up with sex. Dodger is a big bossy brat and proceeds to prematurely ejaculate.
               - Dodger tries to answer his phone mid-sex.
               - They argue about adopting out the dogs.
               - Dodger introduces the demon fleshlight. It spirals into violent, bloody sex.
               - They have an after-sex feelings jam, and softer aftercare sex.
     [8/3/21 - DAY 17 (5/11)] Garrett blindfolds Dodger and tops him to handle the frustration of being caged.
               - Dodger starts up a struggle for dominance halfway through, and wins.
               - Afterward, Dodger teases Garrett briefly before they have sex in the shower.
               - Garrett safe-words during sex, and they pivot to softer (?) sex in bed, before Dodger locks Garrett in the closet overnight.
     [8/4/21 - DAY 15? (5/9)] Garrett meets Marina, and introduces her to Max.
     [8/19/21 - DAY 18 (5/12)] Dodger wakes Garrett up with gender-swapped sex, although he really overshot the 'kink' factor of the closet.
               - They talk briefly about Garrett's new apartment, and Dodger changes the subject by inviting him on a coffee date.
               - Garrett gets restless, and Dodger takes him on an impromptu trip into rural Mass. On the way Garrett heals Dodger's wrist scars.
               - Dodger screws Garrett against the hood of a rental car he stole at gunpoint.
     [9/2/21 - DAY 20 (5/14)] Garrett and Coyote talk about job-hunting, and Coyote updates him on Marina and Max.
     [9/14/21 - DAY 21 (5/15)] Dodger pushes Garrett into gender-swapping, so he can take her out to dinner and be lovey in public.
               - Dodger starts fingering Garrett under the table during dinner, and slips in a little of his feeder kink.
               - They screw in the car on the way home, and keep going at home. Dodger tries out tail-fucking Garrett.
     [10/6/21 - DAY 29 (5/23)] Garrett sees texts from Jason on Dodger's phone, and they argue after both taking truth serum.
               - They discuss Garrett's suicide, and Dodger shares his fears about it. They also talk about therapy for Dodger.
               - They argue about Dodger's drive to keep Garrett locked away for his own safety. Garrett leaves to move into his new apartment.
               - Garrett texts Coyote the next morning to talk about possibly working for Dana's group.
     [10/12/21 - DAY 30 (5/24)] Garrett meets Dana, they briefly discuss his new job and then go off to spar together.
     [10/12/21 - DAY 30 (5/24)] *Garrett and Dodger sext to smooth over the rough night before.
               - Dodger agrees for Garrett to meet his friends, and talks a bit about them and his role at Atlas.
               - Garrett doms Dodger, until Dodger uses his safeword.
               - They discuss the sex contract again, and get worked up enough to go back to screwing.
     [11/12/21 - DAY 57 (6/20)] Dodger takes Garrett on a plane ride to meet Augustine in New York.
     [AUGUSTINE - 1/17/22 - DAY 57 (6/20)] *Dodger and Garrett meet up with Augustine, who feels Garrett up before dismissing her for their business meeting.
               - Afterward, Augustine catches them being cute at the hotel bar.
               - They meet up with Scotty and Jazzlyn at a fancy Chinese restaurant.
               - Dodger has to step out after Scotty and Jazzlyn leave, leaving Garrett alone with Augustine.
               - They go back to their hotel room, and have make-up sex with a vibrator involved.
               - Garrett heals Dodger's back scars, and they talk about his tattoos. Garrett marks his territory.
     [2/1/22 - DAY 58 (6/21)] Dodger and Garrett head home from New York, screw on a plane and then again at home.
     [PALO - 2/11/22 - DAY 75-76 (7/8-7/9)] Dodger finally introduces Garrett to his friends, so they can do coke and play Poker.
               - Palo corners Garrett to be territorial over Dodger.
               - Dodger and friends start betting on who gets to use Garrett's mouth. Palo nearly kills Garrett, twice.
               - The next morning, Dodger does his best to make up for the night before, with romance and foreplay.
               - Dodger almost immediately ruins it by going fully overboard with 'kink'.
               - Garrett gets his revenge by topping Dodger, and afterward they argue about Dodger not being able to admit he fucked up.
     [BREAK-UP - 3/24/22 - DAY 83 (7/16)] Dodger takes Garrett out to eat, but gets interrupted by a run-in with Dana.
     [3/29/22 - DAY 80 (7/13)] Dodger and Garrett get into an argument over text, after which Dodger gets drunk and rapes him.


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That gets Garrett's attention. It's hard to zone out lost in your own morose thoughts and screaming existential despair with a naked beefcake lying on you.

"Oh, that's... alright." He sounds a little surprised, almost, and sets the bottle aside on the nightstand in favor of settling his aching, exhausted arms around Dodger instead. "Falling asleep alone is still shit."

Dodger feels... very warm. Heavy. Solid. It's... it's actually really nice. With exhaustion settling in, Garrett only dimly remembers why it's surprising for this man's touch to feel nice, until an attempt at speaking reminds him vividly of how badly his throat hurts.

"You really liked making me suffer, didn't you?"

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Dodger settles into Garrett's arms, happy to melt into those strong arms. Strong, even if they're weakened by the strain of the last few days. Just like Garrett, Dodger finds it comforting to have someone in his bed - to have Garrett in his bed specifically, is a gift.

But the question gets his attention, and he looks up with an unreadable expression.

"You liked it too, didn't you?"

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Garrett's expression is hard to read as well, thoughtful and tired and shadows of something else mingled together. For a second he considers being honest, but-

"Are you kidding, I love being held down and forced while fighting back. It's one of my favorite things."

Given that it actually can be one of his favorite things sometimes, it could conceivably be taken as a real answer dressed up in smartassery.

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Dodger's eyes scan Garrett's face, taken off-guard by the answer. It sounds sarcastic, but there's something in there... something Dodger is having trouble with, but he doesn't press it.

"You know I love you." He speaks quietly, his expression softening a bit. "I wouldn't hurt you more than you can handle. Not on purpose."

This is demonstrably false, but he's hoping it will comfort Garrett anyway.

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Despite the appearance that he doesn't think before he speaks, there are often times when Garrett feels as though he can see different paths of action laid out before him: different ways to respond or choices to make that could take a conversation in wildly different directions. This is one of those moments.

He could snap. Right, I must have imagined that whole rape thing. And the stalking."

He could joke. Oh, we're talking about handling? Speaking of-

He could even say it back. It would probably be easy, in theory. Three words.

Instead, he takes the path he very rarely takes: a small moment of something approaching sincerity. Shallow, but real.

"It was just... very intense."

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Dodger pauses to mull that over. For once, he takes Garrett seriously and considers the answer. And once he's processed it, he leans up to press a soft kiss to his lips.

"Sorry. I'll scale it back next time."

It's rare to get a clear answer from Garrett, and he figures he should reward it. Even if apologizing for anything makes him feel a little dirty.

[defaulthawke]

The kiss is nice, but it leaves Garrett speechless for a moment. It's even rarer to get a genuine apology from Dodger. He just- needs a second to process it.

"Thanks."

He has to remind himself not to hope for things to be okay. This moment shouldn't mean anything. It shouldn't. It doesn't mean that things will be alright here or that he's anything approaching safe.

Without realizing, his hand is stroking Dodger's arm, a gentle affection that he isn't even aware of.

"I'd probably be better off if I knew what was going to happen ahead of time."

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The gesture might be subconscious, but Dodger stills and then slowly relaxes as Garrett strokes his arm. Somehow, it feels a lot more genuine than any physical affection he's gotten in the past few years.

"Thought you liked surprises." He slides a hand down to trace meaningless patterns over Garrett's stomach. "Any time you show me something new, you don't tell me shit."

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In turn, the affection makes Garrett relax a little, too. Dodger always knows how to touch him to get a reaction, whether positive or negative, and the sweet, gentle touches to his stomach are exactly what he needs.

"I let you go when you fight," he points out. "If I can't use my safe word when getting a surprise, then it's probably better to know what's going to happen first. I think..."

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Dodger mulls this over, but he can't really argue with it. It seems fair enough.

"I want to put you in a cage." He mumbles, "When you were talking about it before, it really stuck with me."

It may or may not have stuck because of the fascination that meeting Theon Greyjoy had given him, a couple lifetimes ago.

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His eyebrows shoot up in surprise. Maybe it shouldn't be surprising, actually, given how much Dodger harped on it yesterday, but actually hearing the words out loud is something else.

"I don't know," Garrett muses. It sounds pretty hot, yeah, but it's still a lot to agree to that kind of helplessness on purpose with Dodger of all people. "It's not exactly an experience I'm eager to repeat."

Which is demonstrably false.

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"You made it sound pretty great before." Dodger snorts, sitting up a bit so he can admire Garrett's face. "You get off on being humiliated, I figured you'd be into it."

His hand strays up to trace patterns on Garrett's chest, while Dodger seeks out another lazy kiss.

"You used to think about me teasing your cock when you jacked off. Remember that?"

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Garrett leans into that kiss, of course, enjoying the simple contact and closeness. Despite every reason to run screaming from this man, Garrett can't resist the sweetness of these quiet moments.

Of course, Dodger has to go and ruin it by spouting a bunch of extremely confronting filth. Of course I do, Garrett almost says, until he fully processes the question and frowns.

"How do you know that...?" Wait. Wait. It hits him all at once, drawing an extremely irritated look. Motherfucker. "So you were stalking me. That's delightful."

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Dodger's smirk drops off of his face, and he gives Garrett a look as if Garrett is the one ruining the moment.

"Depends on what you define as stalking."

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"I know you were coming into my room," he fires back, still irritated. "And watching me jack off, as well? Really?"

Garrett sits back, wracking his mind for any time that Dodger could have seen him doing... that. Truth be told, he doesn't know why he's even surprised at Dodger. Maybe because that was a period of their lives he hasn't thought about in a very, very long time.

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"If you knew I was there, then it wasn't stalking."

Dodger turns his back to grab his pack of cigarettes, and lights one in a huff. Just to calm his nerves, as if his last one wasn't five minutes ago.

"What's the point of talking with you if you're just gonna get pissed about what I say?"

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"Really?" The cigarette earns Dodger another Look. "I didn't know when you were in there, but I could smell when you had visited."

Garrett reaches for the cigarette, intent on taking a drag himself.

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Dodger flinches when Garrett reaches for his cigarette, but lets him take it with a glowering look.

"So what does that change? You knew I was around. I didn't do anything to you. And everyone in Hell knew what your dick looks like, it's not like I was watching something private."

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Garrett takes a drag, then immediately puts it out on the nightstand and flicks it away. Just to be a dick. Also, because he still thinks cigarettes smell disgusting and he hates them.

"You knew it was wrong, or you wouldn't have been invisible." Irritably. "When exactly did you watch me jerk off? Was it frequent, or a special occasion?"

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Figures. Dodger sets his jaw, before lighting a new one. This time he doesn't answer at first, creating a cloud of smoke around him first.

"Who is John Galt." He finally answers. He's moving to swing his legs over the side of the bed, so he can sulk with his back to the other man.

[defaulthawke]

That utterly nonsensical response baffles Garrett enough that it takes him a minute to say anything. For all that he wracks his brain, he can't even begin to understand what the fuck it means.

"What?" Garrett rolls onto his side enough to try and prop himself up on his elbow, only to immediately collapse again from the strain of putting weight on his messed-up shoulders. "Was that some demon at the club you're jealous of?"

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"No." He's gotten the confused response enough times that he doesn't even miss a beat. "It means 'don't ask questions you don't want the answers to'."

He looks back at Garrett warily, and his tail slides out to touch the man's arm.

"Don't push yourself, or you're going to make it worse."

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Garrett just looks at the tail without doing anything. Honestly, at this point he can't be bothered to swat it away or assert any kind of boundary. It feels pointless and, as fucked-out and tired as he is, too much effort.

"I'll just assume that means literally every day," he snarks. "I don't remember ever fantasizing about that."

Not out loud, anyway. Not where Dodger could hear.

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"Well, I was right, or you wouldn't have gotten defensive."

Dodger doesn't return to snuggling, but he turns to sit facing Garrett. His tail twitches at the end with leftover irritation, but he's trying not to succumb too much.

"You're easy to read. And you like getting humiliated, and hurt, and abused. That's always been why you gravitate to me."

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Garrett huffs with irritation. This is a conversation they've had before. It's oft-visited ground that he's not interested in retreading, so he doubles down on his curiosity (and frustration at not being able to match knowledge to memory).

"I don't remember doing that, ever. Once I knew you were probably stalking me, I started only jacking off in the shower and keeping my thoughts to myself."

So again, Dodger.. how the fuck did you know.